hey ... it's not my problem that all u fuckers did a mistake n i have to take ur fucking blame ... u guys should have  been alert not to do ur own mistake ... u should have seen it coming ... i have my own life , n i prefer 2 b lonely if i have to live with u fuckers ... n that's what i'll do when i grow up ... i would not want to live with u people anymore ... but not all of u ... there is still people that i still like ... but the thing that hurts me the most is that the one that i actually love the most is actually my worst enemy ... i do have feelings too ... n i am not like all u guys out there ... i often think for others before i talk ... everyone makes mistakes ... if u r the one that is responsible for it ... admit it ... be a man ... if u didnt want it to happened ... then u should have think twice before doing it ... no body likes to take any blame i wished that u could feel how is it to be like me ... i noe that there is more people that is more troubled than these ... n yes maybe sometimes i am very emotional n sensitive ... but i dont wish for that ... i wish to be liked by everyone ... but in reality , things doesnt always goes the way u like them to be ... sometimes , i wished that i was dead , but i think life is about learning ... if i can trade places with those tsunami victims ... i seriously dont mind at all ... at least they still have people that loves them ... y did god created so much ... stress n despair ... to us ... what does all these mean and signify ... is all these a sort of punishment ... but thankfully that this (internet) is my avenue ... a place where i can show my feelings ... a place where no one would be bored of listening ... a place where no one would say that this is too much ... i just hate my life

hi people ... just here to update u guys again ... this week was very hectic ... everyone went all over the school campaigning for themselves in pilihan raya "voting" trying to get post , n i mean very high posts (dont need to mention who) some people was over confident , some to eager to have one until they cried because they couldn get it , some people that got it , became very proud , n of course they're a lot of people that is jealous ... well i got president in english club n vice president in scout ... n i must not forget those people who supported me ... thanx n also must always remember not to show off n step on other's head ... aiyo ... this is something minor only la ... dont let it get over ur life or ur friendship ... this is for fun only la ... the real society wont care so much that u r this president n that president ... so people , plz dont get so crazy about all these things la ... peace congrats once more ... n congrats to those who got great post ... n there's always next year

hi hi hi again ... it's long long time since i wrote in my last entry ... well , i'm form five now and this is only my second week in form five . and it's been really stressful , have to revise form 4 somemore ... anyway ... just here to update my readers here ... btw camp is near n 2004 camp is 39 weeks old already ... haha ... anyway , today we had AGM for clubs and society n i got president ... expected it already la , coz teacher made me a deal .. long story la ... anyway ... just watch out for my update people ... bye